Bed

When I get in bed at night I look at my phone. I watch as many reels -that’s what the tech companies call them – as I can.

When I get in bed my brain is on overdrive remembering all the interactions I had, or I didn’t have.

When I get in bed all the thoughts about the day come crashing through my mind. Sometimes I think about other days. Sometimes I think about tomorrow.

When I get in bed I think of all the writing there is to do. Should I get back out of bed and write?

When I’m in bed sometimes the thought are so overwhelming that I want to get up and be somewhere else. Do I go sit in my car? Do I go for a drive? Is there a park bench outside I could go sit on while my thoughts consume me? Should I take a long walk?

When I’m in bed I don’t want to sleep.